Delivery Date Delivery Date When Will It Be?

So here is a baby update that has been long over due. I am feeling fine. The baby is healthy. I am 28 weeks. The doctors and I have decided to have a repeat C-section. The C-section is scheduled for April 20th. The actual due date is April 25th.

Now as many of you know Ella was a C-section also. I picked her date to be September 22, 2004. I did not want the 21st because Cammie's son Ian was born on that day. What does Ella due she brakes my water on the morning of the 21st. As we all know she is very head strong and does as she wants. I should have known it was going to be that way from the get go.

So my question to you is will this baby do as told and wait until the 20th or will I have another Ella on my hands and the baby will come early. Now just some information. My sister Edna's birthday is on the 18th. She does not mind sharing her birthday, but I have tried to hope for each of them to have their own days. So there is a day of significance just like there was for Ella. So leave your comments on when you think the baby will arrive.

Hard Mommy Day

Ella has been having a difficult time as of late. I do believe that some of it has to do with the baby coming, some with the hours that Luke works nothing he can do about that, and the fact that I have a lot on my plate here at the house. I am the primary disciplinarian in the house. Just due to the fact that I am with her more, occupational hazard of working from home. Getting Ella to go to the store for shopping is like worse than pulling teeth. She fights and makes the whole time miserable. However she will willing go with Luke and has a great time, and usually is well behaved. The weekends are when Luke has more time to be with her. During the week he gets home in time to put her to bed and in the morning he has very little time with her either. So the weekends I try to leave to them, however there is only so much of the household duties that I can do.

This weekend he had to work on Saturday morning. Then there was nap and they had the afternoon to play while I got groceries. I bought everything we needed to have a winter camp out in the living room. We had a picnic dinner on the rug, got a movie and Luke and Ella had the whole night together camping out on the living room floor. Then the next day he took her sledding. That afternoon for nap Luke was tired. Have you ever slept with a four year old on an air mattress. Not much sleeping going on, so he took a nap with her. When she got up I was still getting house work done. I did however stop and have her help me pick up all of the toys around the house and then played dollhouse with her. That just did not seem good enough for her. When I took a minute to switch over the laundry she got mad and told me I was mean and wanted to go get Daddy. I took away a marble for the hour and then she really hated me and wanted Daddy, because of course he does not have any work to do and only plays with her which is fun and hardly results in her misbehaving.

Then this morning after having a weekend just for her. I ask her sit down and eat her breakfast and not fight with the other daycare kids, which is not one sided. She sits down and loudly announces that "My Mommy is a big B***h. Oh by the way one of the other Moms was at the door talking with me. Well I lost it. Thank god Luke was still here. I sent her upstairs to talk to him, because I could have killed her. She did come down and apologize and turned her self around, but for the love of good Pete. What would make her say something like that. I will be the first to admit that I am not perfect, actually far from it. I talk like a trucker. I try to watch my mouth in front of her, but no one is perfect I slip up.

Things at school have not been very good either. She has a very hard time listening and doing what is expected. The worst time of the day is gym and swim. Ella is not fond of them. She will walk away from the teachers, and not listen to them, or flat out refuse to do what is being asked of her. In the classroom it is a little better. However the other day she told her teacher that she did not like her and did not like to learn and was never coming back to school. Luke and I both talk to her about it. I have talked with Ella about it with the teachers. She loses marbles over it. I am beginning to worry about next year. I am so scared. In fact just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes.

Deep down she is such a thoughtful, nice little girl. She worries about everyone, and just loves to try to take care of them. I just worry that others do not get the chance to see that part of her. I want this baby more than anything, but I wonder if Ella will be able to handle it. As I sit here writing this with tears in my eyes, I am confused about how to make sure that I take care of the two most important people in my life, Ella and the baby. I want so much for both of them, and I am afraid that I may be hurting Ella. I just do not want her to resent me, because in her eyes I am the one bringing this baby into our family. It is in my body. She tells us all the time that she is worried about the baby, and loves the baby, but then she tells us that we will not love her anymore and that we will want to be with the baby all of the time and not with her. We have spent a lot of time reassuring her that she will have time with us alone and with the baby as a family. However that concept is just so abstract for her that she can not believe it. All we can do is just make sure that we show her when the time comes I guess.

About Luke I do not want anyone to feel as though I am bashing him. He works very hard for this family. I could not do what I do without him. Everyone is being pulled in a hundred directions. He is needed at work, by Ella, by me, and needs alone time. I am needed by the day care, Wegmans, baby, Ella, and would love some alone time; maybe that is selfish of me but I do need it. So much to juggle right now and not enough time.

Well that is enough whining, complaining, sorting out what ever you want to call it. Sorry it was so long. Just need an avenue to get some of this stuff down.

CAT FOR SALE

So this morning I wake up and come down stairs to find that the cat had been up on the mantle. She knocked off my hand blown one of a kind Christmas tree. I leave it up year around because it is so pretty. Luke bought it for me for Christmas the one of the first years after we were married. So I hate my cat right now and am not sure I will get over it. There I just needed to say that. So let the bidding begin!!!!!

What a day and it is only 9:30 am

Well last night I was up with leg cramps so bad that Luke had to help me. They were awful. Then I over slept and did not get to take a shower. That never makes me happy. The toilet down stairs is flushing slow and having troubles. So of course everyone had to have a bowel movement and is unable to get upstairs because of daycare. Then Ella goes to pee and forgets to put the toilet seat up. So it goes everywhere. Oh and did I mention that I took back the vacuum cleaner to Lowe's to return it. This is the second one in two months. So I figure that by Noon I will be standing in a pile of rubble.
Just in case you are asking. Yes, I want you to play the violins for me and I would like some Whine with my cheese, but I can't even do that.

Disney Day Six and Seven

Well our last full day at Disney was spent at the Hollywood Studios park. By this point we were all very tired and getting to each other. This is one of the few smile photos from that day.

We saw three great shows that day. Ariel, Beauty and the Beast, and Playhouse Disney. They were really fun. Playhouse Disney was the best. It was very interactive. The kids were able to answer questions, dance, and catch things that were floating out to them. After the shows Luke and Phil went to go on some of the big boy rides and Ella and I were off to meet some characters.

The last ones were Buzz and Woody from Toy Story. They were the hot ticket. You had to snake around this room decorated from the movie to wait they had some pretty cool things.

Lunch was at the Pizza Planet. By this time in the day it was getting pretty rough. Ella had a good break down and then some shopping. Then it was time to leave the park. We decided to stay in that evening due to every one's lack of energy and we needed to pack because we were flying out the next morning. The night ended on a good note because that is when we told Ella about the baby. She was great on the flight home. She fell asleep before we pulled away from the gate and woke up about 45 minutes outside of Rochester. All in all is was a trip of a life time. We will never forget the experiences we had with our wonderful little girl. With this pregnancy I have realized that she is growing up so fast. I just would love to hold her and keep her little forever.

O.k. enough of that. Sorry this whole Disney thing took so long, but it is now over. Thank you for your patience.

Disney Day Five

Well this day started off early again. Which was a hard go due to the fact that we were out until midnight the night before. Ella and I were off to have tea with Sleeping beauty. This was the most amazing event. The girls were treated like royalty. She was given a doll and a charm bracelet. She also got some really good face time with Sleeping beauty.

Then we were served tea and sandwiches. The girls tea was Sleeping Beauty's favorite it tasted just like apple juice. She was able to meet the royal musician, the Rose Petal Fairy and Sleeping Beauty.

The food was wonderful.

Then it was off for a parade around the resort, and to sign Sleeping Beauty's autograph book.

The day ended with Fireworks over Cinderella's castle. We even saw Tinker Bell fly.

Hold on Ladies and Gents only one for day to get through. Then you will be done hearing about Disney, in case you were sick of it.

Disney Day Four

I feel like the networks. I have taken a break and now will continue with the regularly scheduled programming.

Day four started out with breakfast at Chef Mickey very early in the morning. The reservation was for 7:10 am. We had to leave our resort at 6 am to get there in time. It was well worth it. The food was great and Ella again got to meet many of her favorite characters.

Then it was off to Epcot for the day. Ella really liked the Nemo ride and even enjoyed the new Sorin' ride. Then we were off and around the world. We got to meet Snow White and Dopey, Mulan and Mushu. That was a highlight.

Then we ate lunch in Germany. Ella did not care much for the food, but did like the music. There was a Polka Band playing. She danced up on the dance floor for all to see for the whole set. She had the whole restaurant admiring her.

Then it was back to the room for a rest. The day was not over with yet. Oh no, we still had the big Halloween party to go to that night. There was trick or treating, dancing, a chance to meet Jasmine and Aladdin, Tigger, Pooh, Eeyore, and Piglet, Jesse, fireworks, and a parade. We partied until Midnight.

Then it was off to bed for the next day. This was probably her biggest highlight. Just wait for the next post.